Beyond 30 days.

Well friends our 30 day challenge has passed and I have not had the chance to update the blog.  Actually I have had the chance, but I have not had anything productive to say.  In truth I have been struggling with a negative attitude, lonliness, and a lack of motivation for regular life.  I guess I go through seasons like that now and then.  SO I have not blogged, although praying and blogging probably would've helped me.

Yesterday in church, my pastor spoke about the battleground that is our mind and it hit home in a lot of areas.  Will and I have been on a huge faith adventure for the last few months and up until a couple of weeks ago, I had been filled with hope and FAITH for our future and God's plan for us.  Then Will's faith slipped a bit and he got stressed out and I started to DOUBT.  I also noticed that God wasn't working the way I thot that he should.  I still forget that His ways are not ours and I forget that He usually has things to teach us in the process that don't happen during smooth sailing.   Because our future has felt so unknown, I have become impatient and negative and for the last couple of weeks, the peace that I have had has slowly dissipated.  But God is so good.  He doesn't let me flounder there forever.  So today I begin the day with a new perspective.  #1 God's ways are not our ways.  He can see the whole road, not just what we can see.  If He takes me on a detour I need to trust that He can see something on the road that I can't.  #2  My faith and mood cannot be determined by Will's faith and frame of mind.  I need to stand in faith regardless of where he's at.  That is a hard thing for a woman I think. And #3 is a continuation of what I said the last time I blogged.  I need to remember the battle.  When I slip into a pattern of negative thinking, when I start to pick myself apart for all my flaws, when I am anxious about my future, when I forget about God's goodness, when I am wallowing in my lonliness, I need to train my mind with the truth of God's word.   God is GOOD...all the time.  He has made me who I am, and he doesn't make mistakes...I need to be satisfied with ME and trust Him to work out the MESS that I still see.  I need to trust that He has good things in store for me even when He's taking me in a direction that I didn't expect.  And I need to get up off the couch and stop wallowing.

I have a  funny little side note to this message.  The other day(4 days ago) when I was bored and frustrated with the kids being bored and in my face.  I decided to read to them from a book that my dad read to us as kids.  It told a story about a kid who was never satisfied because he always wanted more.  His brother encouraged him to want what he already had.  And be thankful.  I sat there and told the kids about trusting God even when He doesn't give us what we think we need.  I told them about the road too.  It is kind of funny/ironic that although I sat there and shared that message with them like I knew it, God still needed to SHOW it to me so I could actually GET it.

I still want to encourage you all about marriage and I will keep blogging now and then, but today I thot I'd just share a little bit about my life.  Hope you and your marriages are well.