The thing that I have learned about myself over the years is that I don't like work, I don't like feeling yucky, and I don't like feeling nervous or fearful. It makes me want to turn and run instead of stand and fight. But I must. The same way I must stand and fight for my marriage. The same way I need to work to do things differently when conflict arises with my husband. And the same way I need to face my negative feelings instead of running away from them. I heard a quote today and I might have remembered it slightly wrong, but you'll get the gist. "Marriage isn't meant to make you happy, it's meant to make you holy. " I guess that is why it is such a threat to the enemy of our souls. God's desire is for us to become more like Him and He uses marriage to work out that purpose. It is so sad to see so many throw in the towel and miss out on the refining that takes place through the years in marriage. So if like me, you're finding it hard to persevere and pray...press through, because it is a worthy fight and it is vital that we win...May God give us all the strength to stand in prayer for the next 26 days.
Monday, June 23, 2008
remember the warning???a note to self...
Well it is day 4 of this venture praying for marriage and like my warning a couple days ago said...expect opposition and that is what I am facing right now. Because I am surrounded by 3 little people all day, I like to wait till I can get away alone to spend the time in prayer...usually right after I put the kids to bed. So tonight just after dinner I got this wierd nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach that got progressively worse until the kids bedtime. I felt depressed/lonely/nervous/fat...wierd...and I wanted to do anything else but pray. So I figured I had better get on my knees. Then when I did I was bombarded with fear. It was a battle for me and I admit that I instinctively wanted to run away from it, but I pressed through and prayed again for marriage and my friends and those of you who are walking through this with me. It was definately not easy but at the same time I am even more convinced that this little venture is a threat to the enemy who delights in seeing marriages fall apart.
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I think the Biblical principal of when 2 or more are gathered and if 1 can put a thousand to flight then 2 can put ten thousand to flight (may be quoting that wrong!!) but you get the idea
there is strength in unity and not only are marriages a threat because of this so is the church! so unity is key!
great stuff Lisa!!
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